Is anyone else as unhappy as I am at this dark hour? 

Are you alone like I am?

I Should Know Better/

I don't understand how someone can just get under my skin 3 full days after they do something. I am so stupidly oblivious when I see some sort of attention/care from someone that I disregard all else and in the end I mess up every damn time. Times when I think I'm done and truly over it and happy just completely become backtracked. It's as if happiness never lasts but every single time I hope it does. I don't understand how someone can toy with someone else's emotions or company. I don't understand how someone could be such a dickwad. I don't understand how I can be so infuriated and angry and full of well-deserved hate and still be completely civil and polite and respectful. I know what comes to me every time we speak and I completely let it happen esp when everything and everyone tells me not to. I don't want your replacement or you in any way, shape, or form. I just want to be elated and cared for and not spontaneously intrigued and then completely forgotten. I know what I deserve and it's certainly not the way you have and continue to treat me. 

I need to quit you once and for all. 

I need to forget you.