I was mad mad so I wrote this. I really like it ; It was written on the back of a scrap piece of paper in red marker.


Going Mad

when a match is lit under yourself
who's to say it can't be extinguished?
when you go mad who's to blame but yourself?
who's to say you won't find sanctity?
what about serenity?
when a match is lit under yourself
will your boiling point maximize?
will it feel better breaking things? --like a shelf?
you can't get rid of those terrible lies
just starting to realize !

Alright I realize it's a bit dramatic but I was mad and seriously for once I felt a bit like Cole in TSB (Touching Spirit Bear) for some reason the sound of "delinquent" amuses me. I mean just because someone goes to jail that doesn't always make them a bad person, people can be wrongfully accused and here I go on and on about our umm jail system, no thanks ! Urff I have a lot of things to be happy about yet I can't find sanctity from one person -- It-- No names will be mentioned in this post as usually I don't mention names but as of now that name belongs to the devil herself-- my evil sister ! I'm not mad right now but remembering that time/day makes my insides tingle v__v. 

Side note: Six flags tom I can't wait !

Tonight

Alrighty then. Just had one of those heart to heart talks with mommy about high school. She's very upset I didn't make it into..well med tech or science institute and really I dunno why I didn't get in. I'm going with the fact that mostly it's a raffle and the 89 I got in science last yr doesn't help yet that was my lowest grade the whole year !

I'm not too upset. I'm staying calm because I have a lot ahead. Let's say we're crossing a bridge: well what if the big bridge has a little bridge underneath [even though this will probably never happen] and you fall off the bridge you were initially on, that little bridge could direct you faster than the massive bridge you were on ever would; so really opportunities are endless. Wish my mom understood that point.